Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Remember...

Do not forget the hurting
Their tear stained hands and eyes
The shaking of their fingers
As they look to the sky.
Do not forget the mourning
Who live in darkest night
Whose blood stains red the carpet
When they're too weak to fight.
Don't disregard the broken
Who spend whole nights in pain
Wishing Death would enter
And wash the hurt away.
Do not cast off the lonely
Whose hearts ache with these tempests
Whose bodies fall in terror
Whose agony is relentless.
Do not forget the children,
The brothers, the sisters, the friends,
The parents, the teachers, the lost ones
Who think this is the end.
Remember now the fallen.
Remember now the slain.
Grieve for those who were taken,
The ones who've gone away.
Pray for peace within the war
For those who fail to win
The bruised, the lost, the broken
And above all else:
*Remember them.*




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In loving memory of the wounded and the victims of the shooting in Newtown, Connecticut on December 14, 2012. May the 20 young children and the 6 adults who were murdered rest in Gods care. Also to those and the families of those who have contemplated, attempted, or committed suicide. May you find peace and comfort in Christ.

December 18, 2012
Leaena Tigris

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Paper Dolls


Little paper dolls
In a little paper world
Playing with the fire
As it unfurls
It twists around hands
Burns faces and fingers
We savor the burn
The smoke that lingers.

November 25, 2011
Leaena

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Victim

Robbery of mind and soul
The night-borne thief wont let go
You pull and pull with all your might
But can't win against the beast of the night
Murder of a hopeless heart
Flame extinguished, left in dark
Alone and scared, not sure where to go
Abandoned, forgotten, left on your own
Victim of a thief and liar
Forced to walk into the fire
Flames rise up and smoke turns black
You cannot forget your past
Needing help from someone stronger
Can't hold on for much time longer
Beating heart but growing weak
Awaiting for your Hope to speak

Date unknown
Leaena

Wrecked

Going nowhere, driving fast
No purpose, no hope, and no past
Going up and soon back down
Taking yourself around and around
A shadow runs into the middle of the road
No hesitance or fear it shows
Brakes on, brakes on
But you're going too fast
It's not good enough now
As time flies past
Impact, now, you're at the end of your ride
Your world goes black as you collide
Flip over and over, the silence screams
And slowly nightmares emerge from your dreams
Fall through oblivion, slip through the cracks
Begin to doubt if you'll ever get back
Headlights catch the smoke and fire
The flames rise up higher and higher
Begin to feel the burn of the blaze
And hear the Devil call your name
Far away, police lights flash
The last of your breath soon will be passed
Hands reach out, almost too late
They pick you up and unseal your fate
Next you know, in a hospital bed
Bandages wrapped around your head
Arm in a cast, can barely move
Can't even get up to walk 'round the room
Recovery comes, surely but slow
As time wears on you realize you know
You're not going down that road again
Where the shadows make your life nearly end
Once was too far, but never again
Will you risk your life down that road once you mend.

Date unknown
Leaena

Ragdoll

I was walking on coals
You set the fire
Let the flames eat me up
And slay my desires
Left me choking on smoke
And breathing in pain
You scorched heart, soul, and mind
Made acid from rain
I was stepping on nails
And you beat me down
I felt the glass in my flesh
When I hit the hard ground
I crawled through the desert
You whipped me with sand
Blamed it on the passing storm
But you brought it on the land
I was coming undone
And you tore all the threads
What once held me together
Put me on edge
The knives carved my skin
And you looked away
You just led me on
Like it was some game to play
Stitched a smile on my face
And sent me on my way
Saying its all fine
Everything's okay
You killed me, my torment,
As I hang from this rope
Your hand held the knife
That finally slit my throat

July 3, 2012
Leaena


For a series of drawings I'm doing. It's a black ragdoll that's going through each of these situations, getting more and more torn up until it comes apart at the seams. The final drawing is the doll hanging from a rope, a smile literally stitched onto its face as it dies. Kind of dark and creepy but it happens. Be careful how you treat others, you never know what else is going on.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

What if...

... We cared about someone other than ourselves?
... We decided to really live?
... We truly worshiped and loved God alone?
... We took our faith seriously?
... We completely surrendered?
... We took seriously God's charges to us?
... We knew each others faults and helped them through?
... We weren't scared to be vulnerable?
... We felt loved and secure?
... We thought for ourselves?
... We remembered why it is we live?
... We gave ourselves up?
... We truly knew our Creator?
... We trusted God more than ourselves?
... We encouraged each other?
... We loved for real?

We could change the world.


Date unknown
Leaena

Fire and Shadow

The darkness has no place in light
Fire and shadow never meet
Death can never touch true life
Sin can never greet our King

Date unknown
Leaena

To the Battle

Travel by night
Are you with me?
Fight
Stand aside, step aside
Battle cry
Not afraid
Alone into this battle
Shadows and the Shadow of Death
It's not over yet
We will win
So don't back down
Step aside, you forgot what this is for
Fight to live, live to fight
You've gotta see where the threat lies

Date unknown
Leaena

Eternity, Faith, and Christ

Some thoughts I've been thinking
Some things I must say
Before they leave
And these things pass away
Things I've thought in my silence
In the caverns of mountains inside my mind
Things I'm writing down
Of God and of time.
Eternity is often defined by time itself
As a bird carries sand to the sun
A single grain at a time
So long as that takes, eternity will have just begun
Such examples are true,
Yet unsettling at best
I suppose they're meant to be
But I shall explain my guess
Much as eternity is measured by time
It's because time can be measured
Eternity however is not time itself
But the absence of time's measure
To rephrase in different rhyme
Time does not define eternity
But eternity is the absence of time
Such has occurred to me.
It's a hard thing to grasp
A struggle to hold
But somehow it's come
In a way that I state, free and bold
So I grasp it loosely
For man can't understand
Not fully, without being God
Can any creature hold in its hand
But that is my thought of eternity
That matter loosed, I move on
To my thoughts on faith
And those on love
As to faith, it's not a thing,
No feeling that you hold
Not an apparition either
Real, but only in the soul
As if it is another realm
A place and time of its own
That no man can truly see
That no eye can ever behold
It seems to me that faith is within
Not man's power, but a God given hope
Known only by the deepest part
Of man's eternal soul
Faith is said to be a matter of mind
A mental choice if you will
And while that may be true in part
I believe it goes further still.
That what you believe
Is a decision to make
But that believing in something
Is inevitable "fate"
That it is impossible to logically understand
The eloquence of His word
But that it must be taken by faith alone
As out of a tree jumps a bird
It does not know of gravity
has not studied the natural laws
Only knowing that it has a choice
To starve or to fall
And off it will fly
As free as it is
Because it leaped
And chose to live
I've pondered and think
That such is faith
That you take what it is
And in its place
You leave the gaps
To be explained in time
By the One who gave them
Their intricate design.
Such are my thoughts on faith
Complex I suppose they may be
These are the things in silence
That have occurred to me
On to the mater of Christ and love
His loving us
But then our return
Of the love he gives up
An echo in my head
Haunting me today
That I shall summarize
With simple word and phrase
Should we not be
So consumed with Him
That we can't even imagine
Anything else within?
That we'd never dream of being
Anything but His?
Why not so consumed
And thus known as His kid?
That one look at us
And demons would flee
Our old clothes would bring healing
And all would know He is with me?
That He'd so radically change me
That they'd know whose I am
And who is mine
As I hold His hand
Why is it that we are not such
I have yet to comprehend
Though I may not have good reason
I have no solid answer yet
I suppose it is sin,
Our lust and our greed
Our self sufficiency
And convinced lack of need.

Date unknown
Leaena


I know I could have shortened this, and I know it's long. Maybe it makes sense, maybe it doesn't. But especially on this one, I'm interested to see what you think. Please, be sure to comment if you can. Thanks!


Submission Commission

This story's not over yet
Even this end is only the beginning
Doing what I have to do
Leaving behind what I once knew
Living for real at last
Following You, I won't turn back
Gotta lead the way
Make no mistake
I'm in forever
Let's fight, leading the way

Date unknown
Leaena

Frontline

Feel like I'm walking alone into the valley of the shadow of death. Step aside one another 'cause it ain't over yet. I'd be willing to bet that if you don't back down, you and I'll be the ones that are holding the crown in the end. When it's over we can say well done, but not yet 'cause it's only begun. So wake up and follow me we're the only ones to fight this thing until we've won.

Pillar: Frontline

Advance

Stand aside if you're afraid
We're goin' into the lion's den
No one's gonna fight but us
Step up if you're going in
We go by night
Today we fight
Shout your battle cry
Tonight we risk our very lives
No turning back,
Fists raised high
We're goin' in
Up on the front line
Advance if you believe the cause
Out here there are no common laws
Don't forget what this is for
Don't be afraid to enter the lion's jaws

Date unknown
Leaena

Reality?

You know nothing. You don't understand. You walk in the dark while the world is falling apart.
Is this what it's like to fully surrender? Did I finally do it right? Does it matter any more? I don't have the strength to fight.
Why am I alone? Looking into caverns and canyons, cliffs and oceans, the expanse around me- beautiful but alone. A new world of ships and islands, creatures unknown, a misty universe never fully seen. An expanse incomprehensible. Mountains, canyons, valleys: real until you enter. A place untouchable, unreachable, unreal. It defies reality, but then again, what is real?

Date unknown
Leaena

Trapped

An empty room lies still
A darkness never to be filled
By laughter, joy, or peace
But tears that never cease
Music plays a saddening song
Of romance lost after time so long
Sorrowful devotion plays
Through the passing of another day

Trapped in what used to be
Caged in life before
Captive to the things unseen
Alone forevermore

The wind blows through the trees
Leaves rocking in the breeze
A forest abandoned so long ago
No one treads the ground below
The melody of winds echo
A depressed song never lets go
Saddening hopefulness plays
Through the passing of another day

Trapped in the cold and dark
Just show us the love in your heart
Captive to death and fear
Just show us love and draw near

Date unknown
Leaena


Another song. Probly three or four years old.

Left

I had a dream last night
That you were by my side
But in a second, you vanished
You were gone
I searched most everywhere
But you were never there
That's when I woke up
And realized I was your pawn
You never really cared
You never dared
To let me find out about you
Like a book pushed aside
To make room for a new prize
You left me dead inside

Date unknown
Leaena


Another rewrite of a song, or at least part of one. This one's Fiction by Kids in the Way. Awesome music video if you've never seen it. Amazing song too. Sorry for the lack of originality in these last few posts. I promise there's better stuff on the way. And again, not about me. I'm just gonna stop saying that. I don't care if you think it's about me or not, it'll be a mystery from now on. So just enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2hQZdpSwko

In The Shadows

I do not breathe the breath of man
I have no name, none know what I am
No one can find me when I'm on my ground
You're never safe when I'm around
Listen to the ground, hear the cities moan
I leap from behind, I am the unknown

It's in my blood
It's in my bones
Dissolving my will
Won't leave me alone
Tearing through my heart
It floods through my veins
Venom like acid
Drives me insane
From the beginning
I've always known
It will never let me
Never let me go

I do not live a human life
I am my own, uncontrolled by time
Devour my kind, ravenous within
I am the place where no one has been
Listen to towers, hear creation moan
I kill and consume, I am the unknown

I'm fiery darkness, always surrounding
Never held back by human bindings
Keeper of the flames, Master of the night
I'm murder within, always I'll fight
Listen to valleys, hear the waters moan
Keep out of my way, I am the unknown

Date unknown
Leaena


Again, an attempt at a song. It's not original at all, I know. It's a complete rewrite of Lose Control by... guess who... House of Heroes. I guess I was listening to them a lot or something like that. But it's here. Disclaimer: This isn't really about me. I suppose to an extent, it could be, but that's not how it was intended. So just enjoy it. Hakuna Matata.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Walk With Me

Walk with me
Hold my hand
I'll get you home tonight
Press onward now
We'll be alright

2011, Date unknown
Leaena

My God

Hands up high
I close my eyes
My pulse matches Yours
The words flow past my lips
Purge me of my loneliness
My heart beats to Your time

Rythmic love
Melodious song
My God, my Lover
Sweet and strong
Peaceful walk
Restful care
My Shepherd, my Lord
You're everywhere

Feel you in the air tonight
Everything will be alright
Love cleans me within
Hope rushes in

2011, Date unknown
Leaena


Another attempt at a song, but I kept this one broken up how it was. Maybe some day it'll become something. If you have a suggestion for a better title, feel free to comment and let me know.

Your Greatest Sin

"Your greatest sin is not the abortion that you've asked forgiveness for or the adultery or whatever it is that you did in your life, in your past that you're ashamed of, that keeps pounding you. Your greatest sin is not that! Your greatest sin is not believing God's word. When God says 'You're forgiven!' your greatest sin is unbelief. You want to repent of something grand, stop repenting of sins you've already repented of and repent of your unbelief."

House of Heroes: Voices

Unending War

This unending war goes on tonight
We won't go down without a fight
Every drop of my brothers' blood
Spilled through torment in this mud
The coldest hour comes
Shadows approaching for death
Can't you see, oh God?
Will you not deliver us?
Bring my brothers to glory
Spread your wings
Deliverance and Shadow rage

Date unknown
Leaeana


This was definitely inspired by House of Heroes: Field of Daggers, just like my poem Without a Fight. This one is much much closer to the actual song, however. Really, I don't know why I did this one. Or Without a Fight either. But I did, so they're here. Hope you like them.

Without a Fight

I can't get out
I wish I could be free
Trapped in this cage
Of endless misery
Where have my dreams gone?
What happened here?
Let me out
I wanna be free
Release me now
I'm not goin down
I'll fight til I die
Won't sit back another night
Don't think I'll go quiet
The end won't be the end of this

Date unknown
Leaena


This was originally an attempt at a song. Most of those ended up failing. But it's at least a decent poem, so it's here. There was another verse with it, but I didn't include it up there. If you're interested, this was it:

The coldest hour comes
Every drop of blood that's flown
Wins forth their final glory
Death to my brothers, life to their spirits

That was waaaayyy too close to what I guess was the inspiration both for this and for Unending War, which happens to be House of Heroes' song Field of Daggers off their album The End is not the End. If you listen to the song, or look up the lyrics, you'll see what I mean.

Accepted

Held in the grasp
Of the care in His eyes
Carried by the grace
That He gave when He died
He says "Dear child,
Don't fight any more."
He holds me safe
In Him I'm secure
"Why do you run?
Where can you flee?
I am with you forever."
Said gently to me
I realize at last
That all my faults and my fears
Never mattered to Him
In all of these years
In loneliness I'd taken Him
But then turned away
Trying to fit in
To avoid myself each day
But He doesn't care
I'm perfect to Him
I am accepted
No longer condemned
Unconditional love
He's always enough
Comforting always
Even through the rough

Date unknown
Leaena

Lift Your Eyes

Lift your eyes
See the smile
That crosses His face
Look to the sky
Watch His eyes
The gentleness ever present

Date unknown
Leaena

Saturday, June 30, 2012

The Voice

A girl lays silent
Staring upward
Thinking despair, unsure of herself
Wondering about her purpose
Faintly, as if through thick fog
A voice calls her name
and "Child-" nothing more
Silence falls, an enveloping cloak
Of fear and mistrust
She looks around, afraid of the voice
Yet comforted by its nature
Nothing reveals itself
The shadows remain still
She closes her eyes
To try to forget
But the voice echoes in her mind
A haunting shadow
Of love and quieted anger
She thinks again of life
Lonely, silent, cruel
And darkness crowds her heart again
"Child, I love you, come home"
The voice returns,
Quiet, caring, knowing, certain
Love itself
"Child..."
Another day passes
And she watches on
As life shatters around her
Fragile glass once beautiful
Now it lays in pieces
No longer the ting she thought
Bruises and brokenness
Ashes in her hands
Numberless haunting sorrows
Drift through her mind at night
Uncontrollable fear drives her life on
But even as she watches
She sees a light ahead-
A man waiting with outstretched arms,
Calling her name again:
"Child, dear princess, come home, come home
I can fix this, fix you, just come home to Me."
She runs to the Man who destroys all shadows
Whose voice calms her heart
Whose eyes have the freedom of an eagle
And whose voice holds the roar of a lion
"My darling, come home. I love you, come home"

June 24, 2010
Leaena


Just because I write about a girl, doesn't mean it's me. Just saying. For sake of those who actually know me.

Live

I want to live for real this time
I want to remember who I am
I want to keep in motion
The plan that's kept me alive

Date unknown
Leaena

From Above


I watch as people
Talk and play
I sit on a ledge
And write
People behind me
And in front
I watch and smile
From above

Date unknown
Leaena

Strangers

A man walking on the street
Hiding his fear and lonliness
He just lost his job
And is going home to tell his family
He wonders what he'll say,
And tries to think of someone to talk to
No one comes to mind
A man walking the street,
Dying inside
A teen girl biking in the road
Trying to ride away
From her problems-
Her parents that don't really love her,
Lack of friends and hope
They haunt her thoughts
And though she tries to get away,
She knows she has to go back
A teen girl biking
Dying inside
These are the strangers among us
Whose stories may never be known
These people hurt, but we pass them by
As if they never existed
Lives consumed by fire and water
Destroyed by heat and storms
They walk among us every day
Who will care for the strangers?

June 26, 2010
Leaena

Light

Surrounded by darkness
Enveloped by fear
Consumed by anxiety
Frozen by the past
Life doesn't always work out
The way that you think it will
It makes you alone and afraid
It can take away your freedom
And keep you captive to pain
Friends will let you down
Family will leave
But through it all,
Light endures.

June 25, 2010
Leaena

I just thought of this, but at the time I wrote this I would have been twelve. It doesn't quite seem like that... at least to me. I don't know. Just a random thought. Sometimes even kids have something special in them.

Deliver Us

Fire rises, flames consume
As we watch the sky for hope
Rain pours down, the water devours
As we look at the horizon for peace
The storms come and overtake
But we gaze at the mountains for joy
As if nothing is wrong
God, deliver us,
We can't watch any longer
Give us peace and hope
Deliver us from this torment
Do not let us watch for You any more
Reveal yourself in the sky,
Show yourself in the mountains,
Appear on the horizon,
You are God
Show us love and joy
Separate us from these trials
Shelter us from the pain
You are God

June 25, 2010
Leaena

Friend


Finally someone who understands
Who knows what I've been through
Someone that I feel I can trust
Someone I know I can talk to
An instant friend
At last able to be free
No longer alone
Forever, forever, never alone

June 25, 2010
Leaena


I almost laugh reading this now. I wrote it after meeting a guy at the camp who I thought I had a lot in common with. Haven't seen or talked to him since camp ended. Granted, this is still true. Very very true. Now that I think of it, I wonder where he is... how he's doing... who knows, maybe some day we'll meet again.

Phoenix

Made into ashes
Rising from smoke
Appearing after fire
When all else fails, we rise
Comforting rejected,
Covering outcasts
Helping the fallen
Soar into the heavens,
Brighten the sky
Loving abandoned
Caring for the loners
Smiling for the scared
Fly up to the sky
For the King we rise
A reflection of Love
A bird of Hope
To burn and rerise
From the ashes
Watch for the King

June 24, 2010
Leaena


I've always had a fascination with mythology and especially mythological creatures like Griffins (Gryphons, Griffins, Griffons... I forget how else it's spelled...) At any rate, we crash and burn. I know that all too well. But we also rise. It's up to us to stretch out our fiery wings and protect those who can not protect themselves.

Empty

An empty page stares at me
Willing me to write
Blue lines itching to be caressed
By gentle lines so light
The pencil shivers in my hand
Excited to be used at last
I watch the empty page a while
Wondering how long this will last
At last inspiration
The graphite runs free
I write of the emptiness
Of the page in front of me

June 24, 2010
Leaena


So.... I know this one's pretty weak. There are things I notice as I type this out that I just wouldn't do at this point. For example, the excessive uses of "lines" and "last"... but that's beside the point. I was bored I guess and couldn't think of anything else. If this is the first you've read of my work, please, keep going. I promise it gets better.

Where?

Where can you go
To escape from yourself?
Where can you run
To flee from your past?
Where can you hide
To avoid the Great's love?
Where can you go
Where He's not enough?
Where will you let
Him lead you this time?
Where will you
Be free from your heart?
Where will you
Find yourself in the end?
Where will you go?
Where will you go?

June 23, 2010
Leaena


I guess this was questions I kept asking myself over and over again. Christ is enough. You can't run away, He pursues you to the ends of the earth.

Silence

It fills, but it is emptiness in itself. It is always there, but it is abandonment. You can't stop it or control it. It just is.

Silence

No noises come to break this dark
To finally repair this broken heart
Darkness, quiet, all alone
When will I finally find my home
Chilling emptiness, nothing here
But fading memories and this threatening fear
The dark seeps inside me
Freezing my blood and numbing my heart
Lost in this dark, this brokenness
Trying to find a new start

June 22, 2010
Leaena

Surrounded

Just because someone is surrounded by people doesn't mean they're not alone. Everyone has a story, appearance may contradict.

Surrounded

How can I make them understand
That who I was is not who I am?
How can I ever forget
All I was told and all that I said?
Surrounded by people
But all alone
Abandoned by what
I thought was my home
Surrounded by questions
But so confused
Asking and asked
Have I been used?
Surrounded by silence
Which screams to me
Growling and roaring
When will I be free?

June 22, 2010
Leaena

Friday, June 29, 2012

Names

I was walking back to my room from lunch at camp I saw names etched into the sidewalk. No big long story like in Out of the Window.


Names

I walk on the sidewalk
Something catches my eye
A name engraved in the concrete
Looks at me as I pass by
More names follow
Unique in their ways
All so different
Worn by the days
Each name has a story
Each story a heart
Each heart has a person
And each person a name
What are these stories?
What are the feelings of these hearts?
Who are these people?
Because of a name

June 22, 2010
 Leaena

This isn't really a favorite of mine, but I wrote it nonetheless and it's here anyway. Sorta the same "circular" reasoning as... well, Circle. Just a thought. 

Circle

Everything comes back at some point, one thing starts another which eventually leads back to the cause. Simple but purposeful.

Circle

A vine curls slowly around a tree
Stretching higher
Almost free
The tree looks up
At the sky
Saddening as
Birds fly by
The birds look down
At grass so green
Flying onward
Unhappily
The grass sighs as
A ladybug walks
Crawling steadily
Across the rocks
The ladybug pauses
Atop a vine
Watching the tree
Around which it winds


June 21, 2010
Leaena Tigris